It’s another typical day of the week, the weather was hot and dry. My brain is cooking and my blood is boiling it has been awhile since I felt this numbness on my nape. I went out yesterday with a few things on my mind, found myself walking home feeling empty. The very same feeling that I had a few years ago, feeling remorseful for the series of unfortunate events that has happened last week. The world was spinning so fast that I can no longer keep up and then came abomination lol. I hate it when things don’t go according to plan or when a perfect plan gets busted because of some minor changes. As November comes to a close so are the happy days?

The numbness keeps on crawling from my head to my torso and back. It’s like the a trail of lights swaying up and down. Another thing that keeps on bugging me is this simple phrase: “I have too much freedom to the extent that I don’t know what to do with it”. I am a type of person who easily gets bored and loves to think a lot, maybe you are thinking if I really do (especially if you are a close friend) well, I do. But not in a typical way like most intellectual beings does it. A friend of mine called me a rare type because of the way I think and becasue of my twisted outlook in life. As Five for Fighting said in their song “It’s not easy to be me” no matter how warped my principles are I am sure that I am still sane and think straight.

I see things differently, and appreciate people who’d rather observe what kind of person I am than to tell me what I am suppose to do. I’d ask for an opinion if I think I really need it and I really get annoying once I started to ask for it.

Sometimes I wonder until when can I hold on…